Simply my life..: So tired of living.. Wish i weren't in tis family..

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Monday, March 27, 2006

So tired of living.. Wish i weren't in tis family..

So sad today.. Nt day, i mean nite.. Was told tat my dad wanted to cal up my aunt y did i go to work so early & return hm late.......

Obviously, till now, he still dun trust me.. I have to start work before 9.. Is it too early to go out at 815? And sumtimes i finish class at 6 plus, so i will reach hm at 7 plus. Is tat too late?'

I'm reali getting tired and upset.. I've shed much tears cos dad doesn't trust me and feel that I'm going elsewhere, etc since secondary sch days.. Even if i reali did tat, i m already so big. Can't i haf my freedom? If he's so upset that i haf to go out so early, then he should earn more money or at least find a job instead of staying at hm most of the time. HE tinks that i love waking up at 730. Given a chance, i rather slp till aft or best stil dun wake up at all.

Sumtimes i wonder y am i in such a family..

Dad is so suspicious and penniless.. And yet he's so fussy abt job.. he wans a job tat pays more. but he's already quite old.. feel that he shld jus get a job wif say pays 1000 until he gets a better offer. at least tat 1000 wil lighten mum's load..

Mum is alright but she plays majhong everyday.. she didn't spend time wif us or at least stay at hm for 1 day once a week to rest.. Sometimes i didnt even c her for one week plus..

Bro- Got no comment. I know he dote on me and my sis but doesn't show it. ANd hopefuli, he reali turn over a new leaf and don't create any more trouble.

Sis- Sumtimes I jus can't stannd her.. She always claim tat she's stress by teachers in sch and at hm, i stil keep forcing her. But, isit too much to ask for since she's watching tv for one hr and she oni starts doing her work at 8? Wasn't i stress wen i was in secondary school days? I was even worse cos of dad.

After crying jus nw, i felt better. but i can't go on like tis.. if tis continues, i m afraid i wun be able to take it anymore..

haiz... i jus hope tml wil be a better day..

- posted by LinGal @ 12:31 AM

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